Yes it is late.

But I am in a weird head place probably a tired head space.
I am looking for assurance and I found it looking through my journal at something I wrote to myself not too long ago.

"Be aware. Observe the world around you.
Be honest with yourself.
Do Not Settle.
Know Your Threshold.

Don't be upset at your miscalculations. Accept your weaknesses at face value in the light of day.
Then Move On. "

Maybe to most people this isn't too uplifting but it is to me. I am in a place where I want to take mistakes as just experiences not as crimes that I punishment myself with for days after. Also I do not want to be in complete denial of who I am. I want to see.

I wrote it after an intense surf but I believe it can be applied to my life in Victoria as well.

I MISS SURFING SO MUCH.
Spent last night watching surf vids till 3am. My paddle is probably crap now. Thank you school for taking away all that is sacred. I hope this paper you give me doesn't need to be used as kindling in the next depression.



Ty and I went out on this snow day too last year.
Peter Dervies is my favorite Tofino Surfer ( second guy in the video). Super Chill guy. He really listens to the wave.